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| ~Welcome into my little world~ 12:59:41 |
 | ...Our life is black and white...
...No!!! It's colourfull, u simply can't see all bright colours...
...U're sick!!!...
...Yeah, I am...
...Really?...
...Yes...
...What is the matter with u? Have u visited your doctor?...
...I'll be sick till the end of my life...
...Ah! What kind of illness do u have?...
...My illness is my life and my doctor are my dreams, that treat me every time, when I consider life to be black and white...
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пятница, 10 апреля 2009 г.
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~SOWK~  Seleny...Angel 22:44:32 |
 | I don't care.
I needed these bright colours.
I needed to feel this spring.
I don't care.
Everything's gonna be ok.
I know this. Yeah, we do.
Now I'm even more sensitive than ever.
I don't know why.
And I cried after seeing that movie.
Yes, I did.
And I'm OK.
Yes, I am.
Probably, there's smth wrong with me.
But...
I don't care.
=)
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Категории: About nothing, Forget it, Future, Sleeplessness, Somewhere only we know |
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среда, 18 марта 2009 г.
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| I wish... Seleny...Angel 14:21:31 |
 | When I understand that I can’t cope with my sadness and tears any longer, I’m afraid of being so weak. And the weather is with me. Something looks like rain and then snow and then rain again. The phrase of the week “I wish…” with such a deep sense for me. And when the arm-chair in the corner of the room is empty you finally realize that now you want to turn off the computer and try not to cry. Try to be serious and interested in something else. But I can’t!!!! I hate, when I can’t help people. I blame myself in everything. I know, it’s wrong, but I can’t change myself. Please, stop it and help us… Thought about our encouraging talks stifle me. We know what is going to happen. And we can’t change this… Please, help..!
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Настроение: Awful
Хочется: to open my eyes and to understand that it's just a dream.
Категории: Awful(((, Future, Questions, [...Feelings amd emotions...], [fuck] |
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воскресенье, 8 марта 2009 г.
четверг, 5 марта 2009 г.
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| I know...) Seleny...Angel 21:50:06 |
 | When the Moon is high in the dark sky, I know, that you are looking at it too...
And it's soooo cool to know this..=)
And despite everything I know, that one day everything will be ok..))
I know, that each of us will be happy..))
silence
Настроение: unknown
Хочется: Mmmm
Категории: Future, My life, Somewhere only we know |
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суббота, 21 февраля 2009 г.
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| What a nice day! Seleny...Angel 19:34:39 |
 | Happy Birthday to me?
Yeah! xDDDD
Smth xDDD
Настроение: Cooooooooooooool
Хочется: to keep having fun
Категории: Crazy!!!, Happy!, Holidays, Yahoo!!! |
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суббота, 14 февраля 2009 г.
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| Everytime Seleny...Angel 19:56:29 |
 | 
It's never too late to say a simple phrase
"I love you"
Don't be afraid of saying it!=)
Happy St. Valentine Day!=)
The End
Happy End
=)
Coldplay - Viva la vida
Настроение: Nice
Хочется: Everybody to smile and to be happy)))
Категории: Happy!, Holidays, Yahoo!!! |
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пятница, 13 февраля 2009 г.
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| Stop it... Seleny...Angel 20:49:51 |
| Ah, OMG, how much it hurts!
I can’t stand it anymore!
I’m tired of this heartache and tears everyday…
I just want to become invisible!
I want to walk around the town, to be.
There’s smth inside of me and it’s eating me!
You think that you deserve this pain, but you don’t!!!
Can you hear me??????
You don’t!!!!
And this is not your fault.
This is not how everything supposes to be..!!!
I have no strength to scream, to cry or whatever…
I try to convince myself, saying that “Tomorrow gonna be alright”, but I realize that it’ll never happen.
But still, shit, I keep saying this!!!
Loud music - I have no voice…
“Keep on dreaming”, Ha!!!
I’m so naive!!!
It occurs…
I need support… I need help… I’m weak…
I can do nothing!!!
OMG… This stupid heartache again…
We are connected… I felt so bad today.
And here we go: one word - “awful”.
I need to take some pills…
I’m worrying, yes, I am…
“If you want to get out alive, run for your life.”
…Feeble…
TDG - home
Настроение: Tears
Хочется: I want everyting to be ok...
Категории: Awful(((, My life, SOS!!!!, [fuck], Questions |
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воскресенье, 1 февраля 2009 г.
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| A night sky..? Seleny...Angel 14:58:45 |
| Do you know that there are some moments in our life, when we’re sick and tired of everything..!
When you realize that it’s better not to turn on your computer, because there are some things that are very difficult to control. But, in spite everything, you push the button on this stupid machine, open a web-site and read those topics that are better to be untold. It’s so strange… I tried to run from this reality, now I’m running from another one, virtual. Where am I running?.. Problems are everywhere..! And when you try to get rid of them perhaps for 1 day and 1 night, you can’t! They find every convenient way to get into your head and to eat you from inside... But, all these troubles, they we’ll be always in this world. And our task is to overcome them and not to fall down. But let it be, as it is now.
February is truly my month… The last one… Smth between cold and warm…
Army - rain
Настроение: bad
Хочется: I don't know
Категории: About nothing, Forget it, Future, Questions, [fuck] |
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понедельник, 19 января 2009 г.
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| Whoa Seleny...Angel 15:42:37 |
| Shit, stop lying, please!
We are so nervous now..!
Where are you now? What’re you doing? Is everything alright with you..?
Now I really want to have wings and to fly to all of you, guys…
What’s wrong with us?
Now I really want to do my best to help you, but I realize that I can do nothing…
Every night I toss in my bed and don’t have a wink of sleep…
Hm, and do you know what?..
Only now I’ve understood, that 1 year ago I came to this site…
Paramore
Настроение: Out
Хочется: To be sure, that everything is ok with my friends...
Категории: Awful(((, My life, Questions, [fuck] |
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пятница, 9 января 2009 г.
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| .... Seleny...Angel 20:59:46 |
| Cold...
A cold, freazing wind from the opened window...
Wet hair and skin, smells like a cup of coffee...)
This odor filled the whole room...
I miss my friends...
How are they now?..
This the worts thing of making friends through the Internet:
You love them so much!!!, but you can't help them...
And they know everything about you: all your dreams, they just smile and don't say, that they are stupid or impossible
Now YOU know nothing about me...
Those stupid pages of this blog mixed up in your head and you can't understand it...
Maybe, one day, you'll know more about me, but not today, 'cause...))
I'll stand by you
Настроение: Went out
Хочется: To become an angel and to fly to my friends
Категории: About nothing, [...Feelings amd emotions...], Somewhere only we know, Night Thougths, My thoughts... |
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| Yellow?Pink?Blue?.. Seleny...Angel 08:02:54 |
 | Huh, honey, why have you done it?=))
Yeah, it’s easy to drink 4 cups of coffee at night, but what for?))
To get sleeplessness?.. Ah, you don’t need this)
You know, idioms are quite interesting…
I spent the whole night for learning them))
And the USA, GB, Canada, Australia… and UA – soooo boring…)))
But what can I do with this?
Right – nothing!
I don't like to write big and long topiocs here...
I don’t know why…
Lately my blog’s become so stupid and boring…)
But who cares?
I usually write here everything, that somehow have got into my head…)
And the white snow kept falling down..)
Anna Sedakova - My heart
Настроение: Sweet
Хочется: Nothing...
Категории: About nothing, Forget it |
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четверг, 8 января 2009 г.
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| A broken promise?..))) Seleny...Angel 00:10:15 |
| Why do candles die so quickly?..
Why do they live such a short life?..
Hm, now it's about 2 a.m. and I'm sitting in my room and looking at this blue candle..
It's melting and its blue blood slowly runs down to the table...
I promise, that tomorrow I'll start studying topics... Yeah, I promised it to myself...
Hm, let's see, what I'll get..))
Silence
Настроение: So so
Хочется: To fall asleep
Категории: About nothing, Wish me luck, Sleeplessness, Night Thougths, Forget it |
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понедельник, 5 января 2009 г.
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| Cold fingers... Seleny...Angel 21:25:22 |
| I've changed my design... Now it looks so dark...But I like it..)))
Hm, a candle at my table...Slowly,mmm, dying? No one cares of it...
Where is he now? How is he? What's he doing? Did he find a place to live?..
I'm nervous, dammit!!!
Please, don't give in! You're strong!..
You can overcome all these things!..
I suppose, today I won't fall asleep again...
The heart is ready to get out from my body and to fall into small pieces...
I'm not nervous, I'm not nervous, I'm not nervous...
Shit, I am...
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Хочется: To be sure, that everything is alright with him
Категории: Awful(((, Sleeplessness, [...Feelings amd emotions...], SOS!!!! |
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суббота, 27 декабря 2008 г.
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| ~Candies~ Seleny...Angel 13:59:44 |
 | Hello, ladies and gentlemen!))) Yes, that’s right, finally, – holidays) And 14 hours of sleep) Yes!
Yesterday I decorated a Xmas tree and actually, that’s all!) Snow is slowly falling, bright lights in my room, nice music, and everything seems to be good. But the truth is that I don’t want this year to leave. Despite everything, it was the best one. So many unforgettable moments, emotions… And I’m so glad, that I can say this) I’m so glad, that all my friends are always near, no matter what can happen. I’m so happy, that I have those people, whom I love and who loves me… this is probably the best feeling in the world.
I don’t need any presents, ‘cause I’m really happy) My mentality has changed a lot and that’s good) Material things are nothing, in comparison with all our memories) And maybe sometimes I feel sad, but this is the main point of being a human being)))
New Year is coming and knocking in our doors,
I don’t need it at all, but nothing can stop it=)
So, I will open my door wide and hope, that the next year will be even better,
Than the last one)))
Lady Gaga
Настроение: Niceeeeeee
Хочется: Nothing)))
Категории: Future, Happy!, Holidays, My life, Somewhere only we know, [...Feelings amd emotions...] |
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воскресенье, 21 декабря 2008 г.
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| ~Turn around~ Seleny...Angel 12:41:30 |
 | Well, here I am again… I haven’t been here for…2 weeks? Or even more… Ah, whatever!
Mm, feeling sad now… I miss my friend! Only 5 weeks left. Only?)
Xmas is coming, the last week of school and then holidays… Hm, the weather is wonderful! White and fluffy snow, that looked so primeval until the morning, until all people got out from their houses)
And every day is the same) You wake up in the morning to the song of Green Day “Wake me up, when September ends”), have a cup of coffee, put on your clothes and make-up, try to find your iPod, say “Bye” & “Have a nice day” to everybody in the house, then a loud music, people around you, speeding at their works, small kids and their parents and this is so cool) Adults don’t mention a young smiling girl, but their small children do, and they smile you in response)) And when you try to find smth tasty in your school bag, to feed a houseless puppy, but you already know, that there’s nothing there( And a normal school day, when you realize, that you and your friends are the only people, who take care of the holiday at school and try to do your best to organize it. When you decorate your class, when you’re singing songs, and laughing on your way home with your friend. When you write a small letter to you friend, that you love her a lot and you are so happy, that she is always by your side. When you downloaded children’s songs from the Internet, and started singing it out loud, lying on the bed and laughing with your best friend.
And you already know, that you have only one year to choose your life. To enter a university, to study… But what should you do, when you don’t know what you want to become?..
Hah, like always, a new game, try to understand smth from this text) I don’t envy people, who read my blog, ‘cause sometimes even I can’t understand it)
Paramore - We're broken
Настроение: Mmmm
Хочется: Nothing
Категории: Future, My thoughts..., Questions, Somewhere only we know |
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понедельник, 8 декабря 2008 г.
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| Morning... Seleny...Angel 11:13:55 |
| What is it?.. A cup of still warm coffee, a wet snow outside my window, relaxing music without words and my heart, beating calm and quietly… Mmmm))) Sounds good) Especially, when I slept only, mmm, 6 hours. Yeah, right, 6 hours) My cat, lying on my knees…Ha! The only good side, of being ill, is that you have to take some anti-allergenic pills, which allows you to do all these things, that you couldn’t do earlier)
And this music… Like small rain-drops. But I hate rain… I love winter, because of snow, and summer, because of warmth))Two opposites… Hm, I’ve at once recollected the song by Roisin Murphy xDDDDDD “I’m a bitch, I’m a lover, I’m a child, I’m an adult…”
Well, but it’s not the main topic of this note. Actually, it has no topic)) But if you’ll manage to find perhaps ONE topic in all notes in my blog, I’ll be, hm, a little bit shocked)))
Alibi - onfession
Настроение: Good, but feel a little bit bad)
Хочется: Massage 0=)
Категории: About nothing, My mood, Questions, Somewhere only we know |
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пятница, 5 декабря 2008 г.
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| Gimme some medicine, please!!!I can... Seleny...Angel 18:22:20 |
 | Gimme some medicine, please!!!
I can't stand this pain any more!!!
It's too hard...
I can't talk... It's painfull to breathe...
Just an usual cold...But I can't keem myself from crying...Why?!..
So painful..
Away from my friends...Don't let them read this...Please!
Come on!
"Just Dance! Gonna be OK!"
Damm, please, give me medicine...
I can't be ill! I simply can't! I have a lot of things to do!!!
I can't let down my friends!!!
...
Smth of TH... I don't know...
Настроение: Awful
Хочется: Give me some medicine, plz...
Категории: Awful(((, [...Feelings amd emotions...], Forget it |
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вторник, 2 декабря 2008 г.
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| Just my thoughts or smth else?.. Seleny...Angel 21:36:03 |
| All people are tend to be in hurry...There look forward to a new day...But time runs too quickly...And then in a couple of years you want to turn everything back...But you can do nothing...There is a moment in our life, when we realize, that we want to become that small smiling child again...to live again!!!To be a teen and to feel your first love, first kiss...We have a lack of time...A lack of life!..Enjoy your life, live every second(c), 'cause it's highly estimated nowadays!..Use this chance - we'll never have another one
Nirvana - Smells like teen spirit
Настроение: So so
Хочется: Nothing
Категории: My life, My thoughts..., Night Thougths, [...Feelings amd emotions...], Somewhere only we know |
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вторник, 25 ноября 2008 г.
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| 0=) Seleny...Angel 12:47:51 |
| Hm... Almost one month. So strange!
Million thoughts in my head, but I didn't want write them here.
I've started writing poems and drawing pictures))) What's wrong with me?..
During this month a sleeplessness has become a part of my life...
Only 5-6 hours of sleep a day - and I'm almost happy))
Let me to sleep perhaps till 9 or 10 a.m. and that would be awesome!
Xmas is coming in one month... I've downloaded an old movie, which I liked to watch, when I was a kid.
It's so difficult to estimate the importance of such moments: just to sit in the room, to watch that old film and to smile, 'cause you realize, that you are not that child any more...
And the real Xmas comes, when all your friends and relatives are happy. And you are not interesting in presents for yourself any more) You're dreaming about the best way of finding best presents for them)
Silence
Настроение: Feeling bad
Хочется: Mmmmm..))
Категории: My thoughts..., Sleeplessness, Somewhere only we know |
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понедельник, 3 ноября 2008 г.
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| Give her more!!!! (c) Seleny...Angel 06:07:50 |
 | A morning...
Only 3 hours of sleep...
A cup of coffee!!!
My music! Loud! Very loud!!! Come on!!!..
That's all I need now!
Smile, honey! OK? *smiling*
2 weeks till smth new...
8 weeks till the 1st end...
Yeah! xDDD
BS - Gimme more
Настроение: 0_o
Хочется: Nothing...
Категории: My life, My thoughts..., [...Feelings amd emotions...], About nothing |
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пятница, 31 октября 2008 г.
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| Buhaha! xDDD Seleny...Angel 08:53:05 |
| Do you know what's the date today?!![]:-)](http://xywe.com/i/smiles/devil.png "]:-)")
Yeah, you're right - the 31st of October & it means, that... Today is the Halloween!
Thus Happy Halloween to everybody!!!
Hm, but the weather is soooo bad: rain, wind... WTF?! I hope, that this year I won't read about the political systems of English-speaking coutries all night
In 40 minutes I'm leaving the house and going to the cinema with my friends... Last three days of freedom and then - schooool... Pf! A scary word... And, of course, the 2d of November - a big-big suprise for our friend
Silence
Настроение: Amazing!!!
Хочется: I want this stupid rain to stop!!!
Категории: Holidays, Happy!, My life, Yahoo!!! |
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понедельник, 27 октября 2008 г.
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| Try to understand smth xDD Seleny...Angel 09:57:18 |
 | Fear...
Why?!
I'm afraid not to know what to say.
Stupid topics!.. USA! USA! USA! Dammit!
No, I'm not nervous!
And also a writing...
I'm really afraid to fail everything!!!
I need to meet Kate...A cinema. Yeah...
Always, when I need to talk to her, I hear only this stupid voice in the cell phone "...try to call later..."
And all those letters))It was so nice to read them.
Coldplay
Настроение: ...
Хочется: To head for some warm island, far away from here
Категории: My life, My thoughts..., Questions, About nothing |
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вторник, 21 октября 2008 г.
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| Perfect world..? Seleny...Angel 16:08:55 |
| Autumn...
It's so cool to view main pages of different sites and to read smth like:
"Ah! Autumn!!! What a wonderful season!" & "Dammit! I hate it! This stupid fall always only spoils everything in my life" xDDD
It might sound strange, but I feel nothing about it! Just NOTHING! I'm a kind of a mix of all these feelings)))
Hm, even less then 2 weeks left till the that competition, but I don't care!=) And then FLEX... *smiling* I will never win it, but, honestly, I don't want to! xD USA... Sure, a nice state, but!!! Poor Ksenya... Now she is in the USA and do you know what? Her family doesn't give her any food, the temperature in her room is about 15C, the nearest shop is 20 mins away by car and she has no warm clothes, 'cause they don't allow her to go and buy some!!! And this is one of the richest states in the world?!Pf! No way! UA - the best country ever! xDDD
Britney Spears - Womanizer
Настроение: Good
Хочется: Where is my bed? xDD
Категории: Forget it, Future, {-Bo-o-oring-} |
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суббота, 11 октября 2008 г.
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| Let's get it started!!! Seleny...Angel 19:13:34 |
| Ok, I'm back...But not for long! On the 8th of November I'm going to the olimpiyad.
NICE!!! xDDD
But I don't care about it, probably because I'm tired of all these bla-bla-bla-bla)))
Now I'm thinking about smth else) Mmmm, London! England!!!
Dreams-dreams xDDD
Sure, I have a chance to go to London for 2 or 3 weeks, but what about a price of such a trip?..
Ah, it doesn't matter!)))
Now I'm thinking only about the redecoration at home! It will be great, if we would finish it before New Year!)))
Paramore - Here we go again
Настроение: Soso
Хочется: Emm, I don't know
Категории: My life |
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среда, 8 октября 2008 г.
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| Forget it! Seleny...Angel 17:33:36 |
| A headache... Again!!! Damm it!!!
Try to do my h/t, but I can't...
No one needs to know about this...
So why I'm writting this?..
My head simply doesn't work.
What's wrong with me?..
Now I really want to feel fit...
Where is my bed?..
No where! I don't have it now!!!
A redecoration...
A scary word...
I can find nothing...
Silence
Настроение: Awful
Хочется: I don't know
Категории: Awful(((, About nothing, Forget it |
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