My life, my dreams, me...

~Mmmm~

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 20:35:05 GMT

So strange...
Try to keep my hands closer to the candle to get warm...
I really feel cold. Again.
Mmm, likely, my cat made me feel warm, while lying on my legs=)
Feel better now...
Only 4 days left till the fall.
And I hate rains. I hate a dark sky... I feel sad and depressed then.
I don't need this.

Mood: I'm not sure
Music: Paramore
Categories: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., Night Thougths

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Cold, cold, cold, cold!!!Damm, so c...

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 20:24:37 GMT

Cold, cold, cold, cold!!!
Damm, so cold!!!!(((
My hands are frozen...
My jaw hurts again... It's painful to talk, to eat, to open my mouth wide.
A Doctor? Well, she says not to talk for 2-3 week! But I'll never do this.
Maybe only when I get on a desert island))) But I never will)))
The only thing, that I can do is to wear a scarf=)

Mood: Em...
Music: Keane
I want: I won't tell you=p
Categories: Night Thougths, Sleeplessness, [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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My bed=)))

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 21:35:52 GMT

Today, I'm sleeping im ny bed, with my pillows and teddy bears xDDD
Yeah, be sure, I have Teddy Bears))) Three! A big one and very fluffy, a smaller one amd a Me to You teddy)))
Here it is=)))Don't take it
~~Ah, I lost my mind)~~
Last two days I crashed with my friend. Her parents left the city and we decided to spend these weekends at her house. The weather was so hot and stuffy! Yuk! But, it was raining cats and dogs yesterday night. I couldn't fall asleep. I hate rain! I hate thunderstorm!!! I was lying in the bed and trembled everytime, when there was one more flash of the lightning on the night sky.
...Only 5 days left till the next school year. 10th form... I'm not gonna go to school till the 1st of September. No! No! No! That won't do! I have to disappear in the end of this week.. . Or simply not to pick up the phone xDDD
Mood: Nicccceee
Music: P!nk - So what?
I want: Doesn't matter=p
Categories: Free-time activity))), {-Bo-o-oring-}, Night Thougths, Sleeplessness

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...

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 22:56:02 GMT

- It's so easy to communicate with you.
- What about others?
- I always have to say something to them...

Forget it...
I miss my friend(((
Kate.........
She is the person, with whom I can stay in silence...
And, while holding her hand, I can feel her heart beating.
This makes me wanna smile=)

Mood: I don't know...
Music: Remix
I want: Coffee
Categories: Night Thougths, [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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{-Bo-o-oring-}

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 20:29:56 GMT

MaX is offline, Sondra too...
Damm(((
So lonely! Only music is saving me now!
The only thought, that it is only 2 weeks left till the new school year, makes me wanna scream!!!
Fortunately, all teachers decided to get on their vacations in the end of the this month))) No one gonna call me, ask to do smth, etc. But, in case of what, I�ll disguise)))
I'm planning to leave my home for this weekend: spend a few days at my friend�s place, her parents are leaving the house, so, we�ll have fun, just like at the small �after-party� after my Birthday party xDDD Sounds so stupid!!! ~~I won�t tell you about this...~~

Mood: Mmmm?..
Music: A.R.M.Y. - Rain
I want: To talk!!!!
Categories: {-Bo-o-oring-}, About nothing, Sleeplessness, SOS!!!!

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Like always?..

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 18:47:49 GMT

Yeah!
Again...
Everything is like always...
A saving SMS...
From my friend...
When everything seems to be so..."good")))
Cell phones were invented to call!
Why don't they?!
It happens everytime.
You try to choose the best song on your signal...
But what for?!
No one will call and you won't hear it.
And then you turn off the sound...
Vibration...
Mood: Who cares?!..
Music: No doubt - Don't speak
I want: To talk to someone of my friends...
Categories: [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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M-m-m-morning)))

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Fri, 15 Aug 2008 07:54:35 GMT

The smell of coffee�. Ah. What can be better, if you went to bed at 3 a.m.? =))
A common thing!.. I was like always making avatars in Photoshop� For Kris� She�ll kill me xDD
Yesterday the Moon was very beautiful! I was alone at home and could watch at it, as long, as I wanted�

Mood: Sweet
Music: Milos - Yes and no
I want: Nothing
Categories: My thoughts...

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Earphones, my thoughts, Microsoft W...

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 21:50:59 GMT

Earphones, my thoughts, Microsoft Word and a deep night. That�s all I have, perhaps, now�
My cat has just fallen down from the chair. LOL xDDD
Now I want to talk to someone, but everybody is offline� Dammit!!!
Tomorrow� Today I have to go somewhere!!! I don�t care about this stupid pain anymore!
Ah, I miss my friends� Where are they now?
Sondra is somewhere away, Izz, well, she sits with her small sister all the time, Kris, hm, she takes her �fire lessons� everyday�
Yesterday, I woke up at 14 p.m. This night I�ll be awaked till 3 or 4 a.m� OMG! It becomes like an illness� Sleeplessness! And then a cup of coffee for my breakfast.
Music, music, music� �Be running up that road, be running up hill, be running up that building. If I only could�� As I always say:

Izz was so shocked, when she read this xDDD

She's must be not sleeping now too...
S:"I have an allergy on smth"
Izz:�Dust, hair, washing powder, water or smth special?�
S:�Darkness, paint, dust, tires, old-school stuff�(underline what you like most)�
Izz:�I like darkness and paint! Close your nose and turn on the light! Or better call me! I�m not at home!� xDDD

Mood: Do I have to answer this question?..
Music: NikitA - Rabbit
I want: To mix with someone!!!
Categories: Sleeplessness, Night Thougths, [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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~Night thoughts~

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 22:38:53 GMT

�Sel, do you sleep at all?!� � very often my friends ask me this question.
The answer: Yes, I do=) But, lately, not too much.
Of course, on some days I can sleep till 13 or 14 p.m. And sometimes I can go to bed at 3-4 a.m. and get up at 7-9 a.m. Everything depends on how much coffee I've drank)))One my friend, her name is Kris, she made me to love this drink. But still, I can't drink coffee without cream. Mmmm... And now the "Coffeemate" has ended... Nooooooooooo!!!
Ah, this pain, I almost forgot about it. Music kills all kinds of pain. When I�m ill or just feel sick, I turn on music very loud! It conceals my pain� Instead of drinking pills, I listen to the music and hug my pillow xDD Like one person said: �It�s a beautiful feeling!� Yeah! It is! xDDD
The cat is sleeping on the chair. Why does she always bite everybody? An unusual cat, angry, old, but I love her))) In spite of all her, ee, disadvantages))))
Stupid thoughts, unreal dreams�
�Dream, honey! I believe, that all your dreams will come true.�
I believe in this too. I always throw a coin into a fountain=))) Or make a wish, when I see the 1st star on the night sky, or I stand between two people with an equal name. Sounds so damm stupid? Who cares? xDD
I�m a dreamer and this fact helps me to live! You don�t believe me? Well, ok. I don�t force you doing this. I just want to say, that dreams give us wings or perhaps, help them to grow) And one day I�ll reach the sky! Yes, I will!!! Without any doubt, I will.

Mood: Unknown
Music: Kelly Clarkson - Behind these hazel eyes
I want: To go with someone to the movie...
Categories: Night Thougths

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"People!!! Stop fighting!!!Angels a...

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 17:57:11 GMT

"People!!! Stop fighting!!!
Angels are crying!
We can be better!
Love is the answer."(c)

Even in the 21st century, people's lives don't cost a thing...
And this hurts me a lot! Please, stop!!!
What do you want to reach?! A war - is not a way out!!! Even a small child knows this! And you are intelligent and already not kids!
I'm only a teen, but this war makes me wanna cry!..
Useless!!!
I always wanted to make this world better, and now...
I'm afraid!..

Mood: Awful!!!
Music: TH - Heilig
I want: ...
Categories: [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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Trash

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 20:34:13 GMT

Today I decided to make a "room-cleaning"... Boah! I didn't expect, that I have so much trash in it! My mother thought, that I was evacuating my room before the repair OMG!
But now, when I've taken out all that old stuff from my room, it became much...aahhh, roomier xDDD
I've found so many different things from my childhood! Old pictures, copy-books, etc... Alive memories)))
The main topic, which is under consideration in our family, is the repair! So strange! And I'm so tired of all these talks... Ah!
I can imagine, how many old things we'll find all over the house! All those things, they remind me about my childhood, when evrything was different! Hm...

(Do not take this pic!!! It's made by me! All right reserved!!! Who'll take it, I will bite you!!! And I'm not kidding)
Mood: Nice
Music: Nena
I want: To talk to someone of my friends...
Categories: My life, My thoughts...

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Don't let me opening the Photoshop!...

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 21:18:26 GMT

Don't let me opening the Photoshop!!! I have a fixed idea to make photos and to work with then in the Photoshop!!! I'm goig crazy... All my friends asked me to make smth with their pics. And, of course, I do this! The comp is full of different kind of pics, made by me. What are they for?..
Mood: Nice
Music: Silence
I want: Mmmm..
Categories: Crazy!!!

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Solar eclipse

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 10:16:55 GMT

I've come back from the roof. Today from 12:15 till 13 was a solar eclipse. Of course, I simply couldn't miss this event)))
The view was so stunning!!! I've made some photos, but you can't see the solar eclipse on them((( Only the bright sun! I was lying on my back with two pair of glasses on my eyes and a roentgenogram. Even with help of these things it still causes a lot of harm to your eyes.
So, take a look! The pics are not so beautiful, like that view, but...

Mood: So so
Music: Silence
I want: To sleep
Categories: Pictures

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[...About nothing...]

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 21:08:51 GMT

Ah! This stupid headache!!!! Only music can kill it! I don�t know why, but when I listen to the music, the headache hurts me less.
It was so nice to lie on the roof, to listen to the music and to watch clouds, running somewhere far away in the sky. It�s a pity, that only a little part of people really can feel the same, while looking at the sky. (this is the view from the entrance to my little world=))
I can spend many hours, while lying on that roof and dreaming. This is the entrance into My Own world. The world, which still no one, except of me, can�t see.
Sounds so crazy!!! But don�t forget, that sometimes I can be crazy too.
But not only this evening. I feel so weak now. Not like in the morning, when we went to the cinema)))
But the film was sucks! Well, not really so sucks, but not a masterpiece at all. The only film I really enjoyed( at least this summer) was Wanted. It�s really a cool film!!!
But, now I�m talking not about my favourite movies�
To be sure, I don�t know, what I�m talking about at all�
Tomorrow, or it�s better to say today, I�ll go to school*crying*, to get books� The library starts working from the 1st of August. I simply want to do all these stuff with books and not to go back to THIS building till the 26-31 of August.
I think, that on the next week I�ll call up my teacher and start practising my English.
Damm, it�s almost a midnight and I�m still not sleeping. I promised myself, that I wouldn�t go to bed at 2, 3 and 4 a.m. anymore� For the last 3-4 days I went to bed at 4 a.m. Sweet, isn�t it?

Mood: Sad, but I don't know why...
Music: Placebo - Running up that hill
I want: To talk to someone
Categories: My thoughts..., About nothing

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[Morning tears...]

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Mon, 28 Jul 2008 05:43:08 GMT

I've just woken up...
"I wake up, it's a bad dream, no one on my side, I was frightened..."(c)
It's wasn't just an usual dream...Honestly, I see dreams very seldom.
In my dream my mom was dying... And I realized, that, when a really important person for me is leaving this world forever, most of all I'd like to talk to her!!!'Cause I'll never hear her voice and see her smiling...
But the worst thing, that I had nothing to say. I simply was crying... And when I woke up, I was crying too. And now small and clear tears are running down my face...

Mood: I'm scared. My dreams very often come true
Music: Keane
I want: To talk to a good person
Categories: [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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A water fight!!!!!!!!!

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Sun, 27 Jul 2008 17:05:42 GMT

A hot, stuffy summer day... What can be better, that a water fight on the backyard my house?
I invited my friends and while they were surfing the Net and forcing my comp to do diferent things, which are in a common life are unreal for him , I made a cake(Yeah, I'm going crazy!!!)Here it is:
Then, after watching "Comedy Club", I suggested to have fun. We found empty bottles and sprayers))) Shall I continue?
As the result we all were wet!!! And then a nice pic - three girls in underwear, trying to dry up(By the way, don't worry, no one saw us )
A nice day... Damm, I'm my hair is still soggy
P.S. How is my pie?
Mood: Excellent!!!
Music: The Ting Tings - That's not my name
I want: To repeat this day
Categories: [...Feelings amd emotions...], Free-time activity)))

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Sleeplessness

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 22:29:32 GMT

I can't fall asleep again.
3 topics a day... Wow! I'm in a great form
What are all these thoughts for? Who knows?
OMG! It's already 1:14...
Tomorrow I definately won't wake up till 14:00.. If someone won't help me
Why am I writting all these stuff? It's simply useless!
Hm, once I succeed not to sleep for 24 hours Then my friend came to me and woke me up... Actually, she rang the doorbell and I was sleeping at that time.(Only 10 a.m.And I went to bed at 5...)First I thought, that she was a glitch, but when she started laughing, I realized, that she was real...
Conclusion: Don't spend lots of time, while surfing the Net, it may causes you glitches.
Thnx for attention!
Good night!
Sweet Dreams!

Mood: Sweeeeeeeeeet
Music: Silence
I want: Sleeeeep
Categories: Sleeplessness

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...A chocolate cake...=)

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 20:19:56 GMT

Hm, one more time I realized how changeable can be my mood... In the afternoon I felt sad and now I fell so good!!! The only thing, that I miss, are my friends. Kate is somewhere in the other part of the town, Sondra, well, she is home now, but... I want to gather with all of them!!! At home, without parents, with music, a cam and a vacuum cleaner XD(Sorry, it's just one of my crazy memories=)))
I want to lie with them on my bed, talk about everything, listen to the music. I really missed that times.
I'll make a cake, with dark or white chocolate...=)
Ha, it even makes me laugh! It's so good to have memories. As some one said: Our memories is the only Paradise, from where no one can turn us out.
Mood: Good!!!
Music: TH - Schrei
I want: Nothing)))
Categories: My thoughts..., My mood, My life

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Hm?

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 10:46:47 GMT

I realized, that it is only one month left till the September It makes me feel so sad and... Damm, I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!!! I didn't feel these holidays! They were too short... Only 2 months...AH!!! I'll cry now!!! The first my visit to school will started with:
1)Ah, hi! How are you? Bla-bla-bla... Have you already chosen the song, you'll sing on the school party?
Has anyone asked me, if I want to do this?!
2)On the ** of September, October, Novembet(underline what is right), you have to go to *** to participate in a competition, olinpiyad(underline, what is right)...
No comments!!!
Yeah, I'm definately angry!!! What can they understand?! Do they know, how nervous I am before every competition?And of course, when I get to know, that I win smth - I'm happy! But they can't understand this!!! They simply start discussing my emotions and feelings! Who are they to do this??? Yes, I cried, 'cause I was really happy!!! They simply can't understand me!!! Luckily, I have my friends!
Ah, this word "friend" makes me feel better... Breathe, breathe... Everything is ok!Turn on you favourite music, close your eyes and dream away.

Mood: Good, in spite of the rain
Music: The Pussycat Dolls - When I grow up
I want: To meet all my friends!!!
Categories: [...Feelings amd emotions...]

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Mmmmmorning

no@spam.com (Seleny...Angel) — Fri, 25 Jul 2008 08:53:51 GMT

Good morning! Hm, today I�ve got up very early, as for me. 7:34 a.m. Yuck!!
But the good point of my early getting up is that I managed to do lots of thing, that I usually do only in the second part of the day and have no time for doing smth else, or simply lazy to go somewhere.
I have no idea what shall I do now� Keep mixing with my friends on-line, go to my friend, keep mixing with my friends on-line, go to my friend? Ah, I definitely haven't slept enough.
Mmmm, I've made my decision!Now I'll eat some watermelon and then I'll go to my friends. Or maybe no... Sorry, in the morning I'm a little bit, eee, slow

Mood: Ah?
Music: I can't write the name of the song)))
I want: Ice-cream!!!!
Categories: My life, My thoughts...

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