Wednesday, 18 March 2009
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I wish...  Seleny...Angel 14:21:31 |
 | When I understand that I can’t cope with my sadness and tears any longer, I’m afraid of being so weak. And the weather is with me. Something looks like rain and then snow and then rain again. The phrase of the week “I wish…” with such a deep sense for me. And when the arm-chair in the corner of the room is empty you finally realize that now you want to turn off the computer and try not to cry. Try to be serious and interested in something else. But I can’t!!!! I hate, when I can’t help people. I blame myself in everything. I know, it’s wrong, but I can’t change myself. Please, stop it and help us… Thought about our encouraging talks stifle me. We know what is going to happen. And we can’t change this… Please, help..!
 Background
Mood: Awful
I want: to open my eyes and to understand that it's just a dream.
Tags: Awful(((, Future, Questions, [...Feelings amd emotions...], [fuck] |
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Friday, 13 February 2009
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| Stop it... Seleny...Angel 20:49:51 |
| Ah, OMG, how much it hurts!
I can’t stand it anymore!
I’m tired of this heartache and tears everyday…
I just want to become invisible!
I want to walk around the town, to be.
There’s smth inside of me and it’s eating me!
You think that you deserve this pain, but you don’t!!!
Can you hear me??????
You don’t!!!!
And this is not your fault.
This is not how everything supposes to be..!!!
I have no strength to scream, to cry or whatever…
I try to convince myself, saying that “Tomorrow gonna be alright”, but I realize that it’ll never happen.
But still, shit, I keep saying this!!!
Loud music - I have no voice…
“Keep on dreaming”, Ha!!!
I’m so naive!!!
It occurs…
I need support… I need help… I’m weak…
I can do nothing!!!
OMG… This stupid heartache again…
We are connected… I felt so bad today.
And here we go: one word - “awful”.
I need to take some pills…
I’m worrying, yes, I am…
“If you want to get out alive, run for your life.”
…Feeble…
TDG - home
Mood: Tears
I want: I want everyting to be ok...
Tags: Awful(((, My life, SOS!!!!, [fuck], Questions |
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Sunday, 1 February 2009
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| A night sky..? Seleny...Angel 14:58:45 |
 | Do you know that there are some moments in our life, when we’re sick and tired of everything..!
When you realize that it’s better not to turn on your computer, because there are some things that are very difficult to control. But, in spite everything, you push the button on this stupid machine, open a web-site and read those topics that are better to be untold. It’s so strange… I tried to run from this reality, now I’m running from another one, virtual. Where am I running?.. Problems are everywhere..! And when you try to get rid of them perhaps for 1 day and 1 night, you can’t! They find every convenient way to get into your head and to eat you from inside... But, all these troubles, they we’ll be always in this world. And our task is to overcome them and not to fall down. But let it be, as it is now.
February is truly my month… The last one… Smth between cold and warm…
Army - rain
Mood: bad
I want: I don't know
Tags: About nothing, Forget it, Future, Questions, [fuck] |
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Monday, 19 January 2009
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| Whoa Seleny...Angel 15:42:37 |
| Shit, stop lying, please!
We are so nervous now..!
Where are you now? What’re you doing? Is everything alright with you..?
Now I really want to have wings and to fly to all of you, guys…
What’s wrong with us?
Now I really want to do my best to help you, but I realize that I can do nothing…
Every night I toss in my bed and don’t have a wink of sleep…
Hm, and do you know what?..
Only now I’ve understood, that 1 year ago I came to this site…
Paramore
Mood: Out
I want: To be sure, that everything is ok with my friends...
Tags: Awful(((, My life, Questions, [fuck] |
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