Monday, 3 November 2008
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Give her more!!!! (c)  Seleny...Angel 06:07:50 |
 | A morning...
Only 3 hours of sleep...
A cup of coffee!!!
My music! Loud! Very loud!!! Come on!!!..
That's all I need now!
Smile, honey! OK? *smiling*
2 weeks till smth new...
8 weeks till the 1st end...
Yeah! xDDD
 BS - Gimme more
Mood: 0_o
I want: Nothing...
Tags: My life, My thoughts..., [...Feelings amd emotions...], About nothing |
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Monday, 27 October 2008
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| Try to understand smth xDD Seleny...Angel 09:57:18 |
 | Fear...
Why?!
I'm afraid not to know what to say.
Stupid topics!.. USA! USA! USA! Dammit!
No, I'm not nervous!
And also a writing...
I'm really afraid to fail everything!!!
I need to meet Kate...A cinema. Yeah...
Always, when I need to talk to her, I hear only this stupid voice in the cell phone "...try to call later..."
And all those letters))It was so nice to read them.
Coldplay
Mood: ...
I want: To head for some warm island, far away from here
Tags: My life, My thoughts..., Questions, About nothing |
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Wednesday, 8 October 2008
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| Forget it! Seleny...Angel 17:33:36 |
 | A headache... Again!!! Damm it!!!
Try to do my h/t, but I can't...
No one needs to know about this...
So why I'm writting this?..
My head simply doesn't work.
What's wrong with me?..
Now I really want to feel fit...
Where is my bed?..
No where! I don't have it now!!!
A redecoration...
A scary word...
I can find nothing...
Silence
Mood: Awful
I want: I don't know
Tags: Awful(((, About nothing, Forget it |
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| Morning Seleny...Angel 05:09:54 |
 | You wanted to see London?=)
Here you are!
The whole town is covered with fog...
Like a big ghost.
Cold and wet - a real autumn...
Tokio Hotel
Mood: Emmm
I want: Not to go to school...
Tags: My thoughts..., About nothing |
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Thursday, 2 October 2008
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| _Mrs. Destiny_ Seleny...Angel 14:47:17 |
 | Who is SHE?
What does SHE mean in our lives?
Or, SHE IS our lives?..
No!!! It's wrong!!!
SHE is evil!!!SHE kills people!..
We fight with HER since our first breath and till the end of our lives!..
I always thought, that our life - it's the only one to be blamed in all our difficulties!
But no...
SHE is!!!
Everyday we meet HER!
Everywhere!!!
SHE steps silently and then, suddenly, when we don't expect HER to turn up, SHE rushes through the crowd and choose us!..
And that's when a real fight begins!
But not all of us can overcome HER!..
Only the strongest!.. Who has a strong will...
My mother does and she did it!!!
She won the fight!!!
She proved, that human beings can be stronger, then SHE is!!!
SHE is our destiny!..
-Knock-knock!
-Who's there?
-Me?
-Who "me"?
-Your destiny!..
-Fuck off!!!
We write our own lives!!! We!!! Not SHE!!!
Nena - Fragezeichen
Mood: Good
I want: Hm...
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., About nothing |
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Monday, 29 September 2008
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| ~Beautiful Cars~ Seleny...Angel 18:46:51 |
 | Neon lights...Lamps...
That's how my sma-a-all town looks at night!..
You may say, that every city is like this.
But I will never accept this!
It's so nice to sit in my dad's car...
To lean on the chair...
And to listen to the loud play in my earphones...
Mmmm, I do this every evening...
And I like it!!!
Yes, I must admit, that I like beautiful cars...
So, who am I?
A hopeless romantic?!
Who cares about this?!
"I believe in you! And I want all your dreams to come true, like in all those romantic films, that you like them so much!))"
Katty))) Here's the person, who understands me...
But, she doesn't forget to get me back to Earth, when I'm somewhere, only I know)))
Wait, what was I talking about?..
Ah, forget it!
It means nothing!..
Nena - Іrgendwie, irgendwo, irgendwann
Mood: Nice
I want: To ride around the town...more and more!!!!
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], Somewhere only we know, About nothing, My thoughts..., Night Thougths |
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Sunday, 28 September 2008
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| An empty room... Seleny...Angel 17:45:17 |
| So difficult!..
All these things...
Put them into the boxes...
I don't feel like saying "Bye" to them...
I'm not ready yet!!!
No! Don't take my memories!..
I can't handle this situation!
It looks so gloomy!..
Rihanna - Cry
Mood: I don't know...
I want: Nothing
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My life, My thoughts..., Somewhere only we know, About nothing |
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Saturday, 20 September 2008
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| So strange... Seleny...Angel 10:28:39 |
| Now I'm talking with one of my friends... And do you know what'd I realized?..
I haven't been celebrating the St. Valentine Day for 3 years!..
Must be the "best" St. Vanentine Day was this year)
From 9 a.m. till 4 p.m. Sel'd been sitting in the cold building and preparing for the olimpiyad)
Then a snowy way home, lunch and I went to my friend...Just to relax after that awful hours, which I's spent at that university. Music and funny talks))) And then only my walkman and a short dark way home.
But suddenly, a loud noise and a hard hand on my shoulder.
- Hey, wait a min, what's up? - two my classmates...
- Ouch, don't scare me like that! What're guys doing here?
- Just going around.And you're...
- An evening walk, will you believe in this?
- Nope!*smiled* How is Sondra?
"How did he understand, that I was at her place?.."
- She's OK. Ok, guys, I'll go, 'cause I'm cold. The weather is sucks!
- Wait, do you have some new music or films at home?
- Aha, let's go...
20 minutes, spent near my comp and a full flash-card with my music)...
While leaving my home they turned around and said:
- Ah, and by the way, Happy St. Valentine Day...
- Thank's... Bye.
Heh, and in a one week I had my Birthday party...
Ah, all those things! Why am I writing them now? So foolish!
Paramore - We're broken
Mood: OK
I want: I don't know
Tags: About nothing, [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., My life |
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Monday, 1 September 2008
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| It means nothing Seleny...Angel 17:39:55 |
 | I hate, when people feel sad and I can do nothing...
I feel sad too, I'm sorry...
A good person?
I don't think so!
This fear hides somewhere inside of me...
And I can do nothing with it!
Pain, pain, pain!
Deep inside of me.
Don't mention this, you won't understand.
Even I can't understand it at all.
"Kill one and you can save a thousand"...
Truth, but it hurts.
Maybe I'm the one, who is due to be killed?..
Ah, stupid, stupid thoughts!!!
I'm not thinking about killing myself!!!
To commit suicide?No! NEVER!
Background
Mood: LMA
I want: Hm
Tags: About nothing, [...Feelings amd emotions...], My life, My mood, My thoughts... |
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Monday, 18 August 2008
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| {-Bo-o-oring-} Seleny...Angel 20:29:56 |
 | MaX is offline, Sondra too...
Damm(((
So lonely! Only music is saving me now!
The only thought, that it is only 2 weeks left till the new school year, makes me wanna scream!!!
Fortunately, all teachers decided to get on their vacations in the end of the this month))) No one gonna call me, ask to do smth, etc. But, in case of what, I’ll disguise)))
I'm planning to leave my home for this weekend: spend a few days at my friend’s place, her parents are leaving the house, so, we’ll have fun, just like at the small “after-party” after my Birthday party xDDD Sounds so stupid!!! I won’t tell you about this... 
A.R.M.Y. - Rain
Mood: Mmmm?..
I want: To talk!!!!
Tags: {-Bo-o-oring-}, About nothing, Sleeplessness, SOS!!!! |
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Thursday, 31 July 2008
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| [...About nothing...] Seleny...Angel 21:08:51 |
| Ah! This stupid headache!!!! Only music can kill it! I don’t know why, but when I listen to the music, the headache hurts me less.
It was so nice to lie on the roof, to listen to the music and to watch clouds, running somewhere far away in the sky. It’s a pity, that only a little part of people really can feel the same, while looking at the sky.  (this is the view from the entrance to my little world=))
I can spend many hours, while lying on that roof and dreaming. This is the entrance into My Own world. The world, which still no one, except of me, can’t see.
Sounds so crazy!!! But don’t forget, that sometimes I can be crazy too.
But not only this evening. I feel so weak now. Not like in the morning, when we went to the cinema)))
But the film was sucks! Well, not really so sucks, but not a masterpiece at all. The only film I really enjoyed( at least this summer) was Wanted. It’s really a cool film!!!
But, now I’m talking not about my favourite movies…
To be sure, I don’t know, what I’m talking about at all…
Tomorrow, or it’s better to say today, I’ll go to school*crying*, to get books… The library starts working from the 1st of August. I simply want to do all these stuff with books and not to go back to THIS building till the 26-31 of August.
I think, that on the next week I’ll call up my teacher and start practising my English.
Damm, it’s almost a midnight and I’m still not sleeping. I promised myself, that I wouldn’t go to bed at 2, 3 and 4 a.m. anymore… For the last 3-4 days I went to bed at 4 a.m. Sweet, isn’t it?
Placebo - Running up that hill
Mood: Sad, but I don't know why...
I want: To talk to someone
Tags: My thoughts..., About nothing |
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