Friday, 9 January 2009
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....  Seleny...Angel 20:59:46 |
 | Cold...
A cold, freazing wind from the opened window...
Wet hair and skin, smells like a cup of coffee...)
This odor filled the whole room...
I miss my friends...
How are they now?..
This the worts thing of making friends through the Internet:
You love them so much!!!, but you can't help them...
And they know everything about you: all your dreams, they just smile and don't say, that they are stupid or impossible
Now YOU know nothing about me...
Those stupid pages of this blog mixed up in your head and you can't understand it...
Maybe, one day, you'll know more about me, but not today, 'cause...))
 I'll stand by you
Mood: Went out
I want: To become an angel and to fly to my friends
Tags: About nothing, [...Feelings amd emotions...], Somewhere only we know, Night Thougths, My thoughts... |
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Sunday, 21 December 2008
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| ~Turn around~ Seleny...Angel 12:41:30 |
 | Well, here I am again… I haven’t been here for…2 weeks? Or even more… Ah, whatever!
Mm, feeling sad now… I miss my friend! Only 5 weeks left. Only?)
Xmas is coming, the last week of school and then holidays… Hm, the weather is wonderful! White and fluffy snow, that looked so primeval until the morning, until all people got out from their houses)
And every day is the same) You wake up in the morning to the song of Green Day “Wake me up, when September ends”), have a cup of coffee, put on your clothes and make-up, try to find your iPod, say “Bye” & “Have a nice day” to everybody in the house, then a loud music, people around you, speeding at their works, small kids and their parents and this is so cool) Adults don’t mention a young smiling girl, but their small children do, and they smile you in response)) And when you try to find smth tasty in your school bag, to feed a houseless puppy, but you already know, that there’s nothing there( And a normal school day, when you realize, that you and your friends are the only people, who take care of the holiday at school and try to do your best to organize it. When you decorate your class, when you’re singing songs, and laughing on your way home with your friend. When you write a small letter to you friend, that you love her a lot and you are so happy, that she is always by your side. When you downloaded children’s songs from the Internet, and started singing it out loud, lying on the bed and laughing with your best friend.
And you already know, that you have only one year to choose your life. To enter a university, to study… But what should you do, when you don’t know what you want to become?..
Hah, like always, a new game, try to understand smth from this text) I don’t envy people, who read my blog, ‘cause sometimes even I can’t understand it)
Paramore - We're broken
Mood: Mmmm
I want: Nothing
Tags: Future, My thoughts..., Questions, Somewhere only we know |
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Tuesday, 2 December 2008
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| Just my thoughts or smth else?.. Seleny...Angel 21:36:03 |
 | All people are tend to be in hurry...There look forward to a new day...But time runs too quickly...And then in a couple of years you want to turn everything back...But you can do nothing...There is a moment in our life, when we realize, that we want to become that small smiling child again...to live again!!!To be a teen and to feel your first love, first kiss...We have a lack of time...A lack of life!..Enjoy your life, live every second(c), 'cause it's highly estimated nowadays!..Use this chance - we'll never have another one
Nirvana - Smells like teen spirit
Mood: So so
I want: Nothing
Tags: My life, My thoughts..., Night Thougths, [...Feelings amd emotions...], Somewhere only we know |
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Tuesday, 25 November 2008
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| 0=) Seleny...Angel 12:47:51 |
 | Hm... Almost one month. So strange!
Million thoughts in my head, but I didn't want write them here.
I've started writing poems and drawing pictures))) What's wrong with me?..
During this month a sleeplessness has become a part of my life...
Only 5-6 hours of sleep a day - and I'm almost happy))
Let me to sleep perhaps till 9 or 10 a.m. and that would be awesome!
Xmas is coming in one month... I've downloaded an old movie, which I liked to watch, when I was a kid.
It's so difficult to estimate the importance of such moments: just to sit in the room, to watch that old film and to smile, 'cause you realize, that you are not that child any more...
And the real Xmas comes, when all your friends and relatives are happy. And you are not interesting in presents for yourself any more) You're dreaming about the best way of finding best presents for them)
Silence
Mood: Feeling bad
I want: Mmmmm..))
Tags: My thoughts..., Sleeplessness, Somewhere only we know |
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Monday, 3 November 2008
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| Give her more!!!! (c) Seleny...Angel 06:07:50 |
 | A morning...
Only 3 hours of sleep...
A cup of coffee!!!
My music! Loud! Very loud!!! Come on!!!..
That's all I need now!
Smile, honey! OK? *smiling*
2 weeks till smth new...
8 weeks till the 1st end...
Yeah! xDDD
BS - Gimme more
Mood: 0_o
I want: Nothing...
Tags: My life, My thoughts..., [...Feelings amd emotions...], About nothing |
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Monday, 27 October 2008
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| Try to understand smth xDD Seleny...Angel 09:57:18 |
 | Fear...
Why?!
I'm afraid not to know what to say.
Stupid topics!.. USA! USA! USA! Dammit!
No, I'm not nervous!
And also a writing...
I'm really afraid to fail everything!!!
I need to meet Kate...A cinema. Yeah...
Always, when I need to talk to her, I hear only this stupid voice in the cell phone "...try to call later..."
And all those letters))It was so nice to read them.
Coldplay
Mood: ...
I want: To head for some warm island, far away from here
Tags: My life, My thoughts..., Questions, About nothing |
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Wednesday, 8 October 2008
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| Morning Seleny...Angel 05:09:54 |
 | You wanted to see London?=)
Here you are!
The whole town is covered with fog...
Like a big ghost.
Cold and wet - a real autumn...
Tokio Hotel
Mood: Emmm
I want: Not to go to school...
Tags: My thoughts..., About nothing |
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Thursday, 2 October 2008
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| _Mrs. Destiny_ Seleny...Angel 14:47:17 |
 | Who is SHE?
What does SHE mean in our lives?
Or, SHE IS our lives?..
No!!! It's wrong!!!
SHE is evil!!!SHE kills people!..
We fight with HER since our first breath and till the end of our lives!..
I always thought, that our life - it's the only one to be blamed in all our difficulties!
But no...
SHE is!!!
Everyday we meet HER!
Everywhere!!!
SHE steps silently and then, suddenly, when we don't expect HER to turn up, SHE rushes through the crowd and choose us!..
And that's when a real fight begins!
But not all of us can overcome HER!..
Only the strongest!.. Who has a strong will...
My mother does and she did it!!!
She won the fight!!!
She proved, that human beings can be stronger, then SHE is!!!
SHE is our destiny!..
-Knock-knock!
-Who's there?
-Me?
-Who "me"?
-Your destiny!..
-Fuck off!!!
We write our own lives!!! We!!! Not SHE!!!
Nena - Fragezeichen
Mood: Good
I want: Hm...
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., About nothing |
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Wednesday, 1 October 2008
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| Really, why?.. Seleny...Angel 17:45:10 |
 | Ah, do you know, why I like Thursdays?..
'Cause on Thursdays' mornings I get up and say myself:"Hold on! Only 2 days left till holidays... Cheer up!"
Tomorrow is Thursday!
But the morning of the Friday is the nicest thing:
"Finally!!! The end of the week!!!"=)
And I also like, when we don't have to come on the 1st lesson)))
Tomorrow I'm sleeping for one more hour longer)))
Only 4 lessons till 13:15 and then: Home, Sweet home!! xDDD
Autumn makes me feel always tired... Or, maybe it's school?)))
Doesn't matter!
I must admit, that I'm quite a sleepyhead)
It's horrible, when I have to rise at 6:25...
Of course, I don't sleep till 16:00, but...
12 hours for a sleep - the best time to feel fit)))
And no-o-o-ow...
Say "Good Bye" to Sel=),
'cause Sel=) is saying you "Sweet Dreams!!!"=)
Good Night!
Tatu - You and I
Mood: *sleeps*
I want: To hug my pillow
Tags: My thoughts..., [...Feelings amd emotions...], Night Thougths, School is sucks! |
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Sunday, 28 September 2008
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| An empty room... Seleny...Angel 17:45:17 |
| So difficult!..
All these things...
Put them into the boxes...
I don't feel like saying "Bye" to them...
I'm not ready yet!!!
No! Don't take my memories!..
I can't handle this situation!
It looks so gloomy!..
Rihanna - Cry
Mood: I don't know...
I want: Nothing
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My life, My thoughts..., Somewhere only we know, About nothing |
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Saturday, 20 September 2008
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| So strange... Seleny...Angel 10:28:39 |
 | Now I'm talking with one of my friends... And do you know what'd I realized?..
I haven't been celebrating the St. Valentine Day for 3 years!..
Must be the "best" St. Vanentine Day was this year)
From 9 a.m. till 4 p.m. Sel'd been sitting in the cold building and preparing for the olimpiyad)
Then a snowy way home, lunch and I went to my friend...Just to relax after that awful hours, which I's spent at that university. Music and funny talks))) And then only my walkman and a short dark way home.
But suddenly, a loud noise and a hard hand on my shoulder.
- Hey, wait a min, what's up? - two my classmates...
- Ouch, don't scare me like that! What're guys doing here?
- Just going around.And you're...
- An evening walk, will you believe in this?
- Nope!*smiled* How is Sondra?
"How did he understand, that I was at her place?.."
- She's OK. Ok, guys, I'll go, 'cause I'm cold. The weather is sucks!
- Wait, do you have some new music or films at home?
- Aha, let's go...
20 minutes, spent near my comp and a full flash-card with my music)...
While leaving my home they turned around and said:
- Ah, and by the way, Happy St. Valentine Day...
- Thank's... Bye.
Heh, and in a one week I had my Birthday party...
Ah, all those things! Why am I writing them now? So foolish!
Paramore - We're broken
Mood: OK
I want: I don't know
Tags: About nothing, [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., My life |
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Wednesday, 17 September 2008
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| An Allergy and a Headache....My old good friends. Seleny...Angel 19:28:24 |
| Do you have dreams?..
I do... I have a special copy-book, where I write down all my dreams and then underline, which come true...
But now I want only to sleep enough!!! I want to lie in the bed for the whole day and to watch DVD's...
And that's all! No! I also want to light the candles...
Lonely romantic)))
Keane
Mood: I'm not sure
I want: To sleep for the whole day
Tags: Somewhere only we know, My life, My thoughts... |
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Wednesday, 27 August 2008
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| ~Mmmm~ Seleny...Angel 20:35:05 |
| So strange...
Try to keep my hands closer to the candle to get warm...
I really feel cold. Again.
Mmm,fortunately, my cat made me feel warm, while lying on my legs=)
Feel better now...
Only 4 days left till the fall.
And I hate rains. I hate a dark sky... I feel sad and depressed then.
I don't need this.
Paramore
Mood: I'm not sure
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., Night Thougths |
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Friday, 15 August 2008
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| M-m-m-morning))) Seleny...Angel 07:54:35 |
| The smell of coffee…. Ah. What can be better, if you went to bed at 3 a.m.? =))
A common thing!.. I was like always making avatars in Photoshop… For Kris… She’ll kill me xDD
Yesterday the Moon was very beautiful! I was alone at home and could watch at it, as long, as I wanted…
Milos - Yes and no
Mood: Sweet
I want: Nothing
Tags: My thoughts... |
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Friday, 8 August 2008
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| Trash Seleny...Angel 20:34:13 |
 | Today I decided to make a "room-cleaning"... Boah! I didn't expect, that I have so much trash in it! My mother thought, that I was evacuating my room before the repair OMG!
But now, when I've taken out all that old stuff from my room, it became much...aahhh, roomier xDDD
I've found so many different things from my childhood! Old pictures, copy-books, etc... Alive memories)))
The main topic, which is under consideration in our family, is the repair! So strange! And I'm so tired of all these talks... Ah!
I can imagine, how many old things we'll find all over the house! All those things, they remind me about my childhood, when evrything was different! Hm...
(Do not take this pic!!! It's made by me! All right reserved!!! Who'll take it, I will bite you!!!![]:-)](http://xywe.com/i/smiles/devil.png "]:-)") And I'm not kidding)
 NenaUndjetztstehichhierundwa.mp3 ( 04:49 / 6,6Mb )
Nena
Mood: Nice
I want: To talk to someone of my friends...
Tags: My life, My thoughts... |
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Thursday, 31 July 2008
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| [...About nothing...] Seleny...Angel 21:08:51 |
| Ah! This stupid headache!!!! Only music can kill it! I don’t know why, but when I listen to the music, the headache hurts me less.
It was so nice to lie on the roof, to listen to the music and to watch clouds, running somewhere far away in the sky. It’s a pity, that only a little part of people really can feel the same, while looking at the sky.  (this is the view from the entrance to my little world=))
I can spend many hours, while lying on that roof and dreaming. This is the entrance into My Own world. The world, which still no one, except of me, can’t see.
Sounds so crazy!!! But don’t forget, that sometimes I can be crazy too.
But not only this evening. I feel so weak now. Not like in the morning, when we went to the cinema)))
But the film was sucks! Well, not really so sucks, but not a masterpiece at all. The only film I really enjoyed( at least this summer) was Wanted. It’s really a cool film!!!
But, now I’m talking not about my favourite movies…
To be sure, I don’t know, what I’m talking about at all…
Tomorrow, or it’s better to say today, I’ll go to school*crying*, to get books… The library starts working from the 1st of August. I simply want to do all these stuff with books and not to go back to THIS building till the 26-31 of August.
I think, that on the next week I’ll call up my teacher and start practising my English.
Damm, it’s almost a midnight and I’m still not sleeping. I promised myself, that I wouldn’t go to bed at 2, 3 and 4 a.m. anymore… For the last 3-4 days I went to bed at 4 a.m. Sweet, isn’t it?
Placebo - Running up that hill
Mood: Sad, but I don't know why...
I want: To talk to someone
Tags: My thoughts..., About nothing |
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Saturday, 26 July 2008
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| ...A chocolate cake...=) Seleny...Angel 20:19:56 |
| Hm, one more time I realized how changeable can be my mood... In the afternoon I felt sad and now I fell so good!!! The only thing, that I miss, are my friends. Kate is somewhere in the other part of the town, Sondra, well, she is home now, but... I want to gather with all of them!!! At home, without parents, with music, a cam and a vacuum cleaner XD(Sorry, it's just one of my crazy memories=)))
I want to lie with them on my bed, talk about everything, listen to the music. I really missed that times.
I'll make a cake, with dark or white chocolate...=)
Ha, it even makes me laugh! It's so good to have memories. As some one said: Our memories is the only Paradise, from where no one can turn us out.
TH - Schrei
Mood: Good!!!
I want: Nothing)))
Tags: My thoughts..., My mood, My life |
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Friday, 25 July 2008
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| Mmmmmorning Seleny...Angel 08:53:51 |
 | Good morning! Hm, today I’ve got up very early, as for me. 7:34 a.m. Yuck!!
But the good point of my early getting up is that I managed to do lots of thing, that I usually do only in the second part of the day and have no time for doing smth else, or simply lazy to go somewhere.
I have no idea what shall I do now… Keep mixing with my friends on-line, go to my friend, keep mixing with my friends on-line, go to my friend? Ah, I definitely haven't slept enough.
Mmmm, I've made my decision!Now I'll eat some watermelon and then I'll go to my friends. Or maybe no... Sorry, in the morning I'm a little bit, eee, slow
I can't write the name of the song)))
Mood: Ah?
I want: Ice-cream!!!!
Tags: My life, My thoughts... |
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Wednesday, 25 June 2008
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| ...Milk and Honey... Seleny...Angel 21:04:52 |
 | Will it help? I hope so!!! That's it! Guess what? No? Ok...
I'm ill again. Lucky? Be sure in this! I'll be alright!
I just need some support, love and... And that's all!
Tags: My life, My thoughts... |
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